Smile, though your heart is aching

I sit in my room surrounded by my possessions and I can't help but have a aching longing for the memories of this summer. I have always had incredible summers full of laughter and memories but this one in particular was superb. Camp was a whirlwind of singing, dancing, hugs, kisses, and smiles. These girls fill my hearts with joy and I am so glad we came together to meet at camp. Although camp has ended for many of them, so many more will soon be joining their legacy. I feel as close to them outside of camp as I when I was their counselor which is a testament to the incredible bonds we have formed. I look forward to seeing them grow up.

I had to say goodbye to my sister once more and this time was different. I'd become fairly accustomed to the 6 month separation that had become a standard of our relationship and even survived an entire year. But how I say goodbye for 2 and a half years? On her 18th birthday, during her birthday announcement, I told her that no matter how far apart we are, I would always be her little sister. A few months later, she told me, "you're my sister. we're family. you don't forget family". We are put the test as she is just months away from leaving for Africa and changing the world. I could be upset that she is leaving during a time when I need her the most but honestly, how could you get mad at someone who is doing so much good for the world? For the time being, I put aside the selfish longing of wanting my sister here with me and focus on the power she has to literally change the world. It prides me to know she is unselfish, good hearted, and kind enough to give herself to others for this extended period of time.

The song Smile by Charlie Chaplin provides inspiration and comfort to me. It's powerful lyrics are applicable and necessary to take to heart at this point in my life.

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking.
When there are clouds in the sky
you'll get by.

If you smile through your pain and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun shining through
For you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness.
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying.
You'll find that life is still worthwhile-
If you just smile.

My dearest Anna, I love you